.

Even Tears don't shed a pity for me
As i sit alone in this empty room
With silent so deafening
As i wait for the light

And so i wonder
If i were to pull the trigger
What does the echo sounds like
if you can hear my drown out cries

Forgotten by the World
I try to breath
But with every breathe
Realizes a New Pain

Insane. Save me now.

为了特别的你，写一首特别的诗

《花叶缘》。期待

冬去春来烟花月，夜风虽冷藏暧昧
瞭望万千星空悦，唯狠相思差相会
星海多大无人晓，明月千里传柔情
元宵长存情人愿，梦里重演多少回

如果喜欢你是错，我不要对
如果想你是罪，枪毙我比较干脆

（干如果你病还不好的话我也没话说了啦，15分钟出神入化了~）

《花叶缘》。上

世上还有谁能让我如此仓惶。。。

《花叶缘》。上
千里相识本无奇，深探渊源情随起
谈吐其中多少意，唯有花叶解玄机
如今移驻云下峰，恳求逆风莫摧残
夜里藏花一度多，梦里惶恐花无知

---岑莫

有缘的话，希望你能解。

The Slience Word

As i listen to countless ballads and tunes depicting love, i cannot help but wonder if it was a tangible subject. Each rhythmic tune set my my pulses spurring up and down, as though it was following the emotion in the music. Maybe it was. The longing of someone is simply a magical force. It makes you more sensitive. The slightest breeze can send your hair tingling on their ends. The gentlest touch can send a pure jolt of ecstasy, almost sinful, down your spine. And of course, the murmuring of a word seem to be so much heavier now; every letter seems to be given its own weight.

You begin to analyze their actions, watching them in the dark like a ninja. It becomes an obsession. You double-think, triple-think until nothing seems to make anymore sense. Each twitch of her lips, tension in her muscles, they are become so obvious now. It was almost like inspecting something under a microscope. This is where things become darker. You covered all the possible interpretation and causes, gather public opinion, and even started praying every single night.

Then you realized, the 'something' you were examining, was an except of yourself. You simply could not recognize it anymore. Something had evolved in the silence. Those silent prayers. They had tolled a dreadful dirge.

Hear me now
Do not run
What i yearn
a definative
What i seek
is just you
What i hope
nevermore
In the abyss
the trinket rattles

-Sanity's Eclipse

A study at the effects of people not replying to messages

Well, it has been a while since i blogged! This holiday sure has been epic for me in turning the mundane and rhythmical tides of life. Frankly speaking guys, i myself have been pondering too. I mean it is always very nice to hear that my close bros are seeing someone that are interested in them. To be honest, its really like a fairy tale. I was happy for them from the bottom of my heart.

...But somewhere, it was yet another scar haunting me again.

Don't get me wrong, i am not one of those guys that whine over their ex-s and muff over bottles of expensive liquor. In fact i am really grateful of my experiences; though short, each of them have a weight in my heart. They really shaped me to who i am today.

But today, i am encouraged no more.

I mean i understand, people do not reply messages when going out with their pals and stuff. At least from my past experiences i taught myself that. However if you were able to clear my messages off the whatsapp list, why wont you just acknowledge them? I know you are having the time of your life and i do not want to bother you with my dull and burdensome messages. So i waited and waited. Maybe i was a fool all along to expect something. Maybe she had just forgotten to reply my messages? Maybe she is still out? Maybe it was just me...?

Every little buzz on the phone got me so excited only to end up disappointed. Trust me, many will not say it but nothing beats the vicious cycle of crushing and reconstructing hope in tearing someones soul apart.

I think everyone just needs a little acknowledgement from time to time to make a little difference in others lives. So next time my dear friends, if you are thinking about whether to reply that message on whatsapp or not, please do. A little kindness can go a long way to making someones day. If someone has the courage to message you, do acknowledge the effort.

Looks like its just me being all sensitive and stuff like that again, huh.

I hope you had a good day. I certainly did.

Sanity's Eclipse

Its in your eyes
a colour fade out
you were the ghost of what you were
drifting through days and hours
longing for a cure
one that ends the unholy rage
that plagues what remains of love

the rain kept falling
and feets still shuffling
but til you stare in the eyes
one will never behold
that pain and rage were such a couple
watch as they tear a soul apart
and for the silent screams you will never hear
let the melody smother any trance
all of sanity's eclipse

白色的王牌

  一秒内，世界的所有都毫无价值了。一场名为爱情的赌局，你玩得起吗？
 
  世界上没有永远的赢家，也没有恒久的败者。我很相信。我很想相信。

  朋友的劝告，我没听。一心以为只要毫不约束的给予对方自己的一切，结果一定会是渴望的。

  All In.

  很豪迈地把自己就这样押了上去。若赌的是心，心死了，人也就应该死了。但我死不了。
 
我输了。输给一个我连名字都不懂的对手，输给了一个久违的朋友，输给了她。

她就在我面前，很平静的依着背包。女孩的头发在微风中舞动着，带着轻轻的旋律，因为她是快乐的。有了伴侣的人怎能不快乐？

马尾解了，来不及爱，就终了。

我可能不能喜欢你。你已经不给我选择了。白色的王牌。

为爱。终